I’m trying to maintain the relaxed frame of mind from the holidays while still increasing my productivity. I’m not sure if the two go hand in hand. I want to chill out but at the same time I want to get things done – can you do both? I’m not sure.
I strain my brain to focus on a writing project and while I’m at work ideas pop into my head and then when I sit down with a piece of paper or pen or in front of my laptop there’s just a blank spot. I’m staring into emptiness trying to find something to grab on to. After such a lovely holiday that I had last week my mind should be relaxed and all the ideas should be flowing out. Sadly, it’s not like that and it’s driving me crazy.
Then there’s the training. I’m all motivated and excited to train as I sit at my desk looking forward to 5pm so I can knock off and head home for the day only to repeat the process the next day. The problem is by the time I get home I usually don’t feel like training. Like today, I intended to go to the gym for a 45 minute run. It was dark and raining when I got home and I just didn’t feel like getting in the car and going to the gym – it all seemed like way too much effort. The daily two hour commute doesn’t help matters. I did eventually persuade myself to get on the bike and I rode for 45 minutes whilst watching an episode of True Blood.
I’m feeling a little lost at the moment. There’s so much I want to do yet there are only so many hours in the day. I find that this often happens after I’ve had a bit too much fun on holidays and completely forgotten about responsibilities, routine and goals. It’s going to take a few days, maybe a week or so to get back into the swing of things. Training is going to have to take priority, but I also would like to get back to writing more and working towards my bigger and more complicated goals. I know I will, and I know this time of uncertainty and being torn in different directions will pass. It’s just a matter of time before I gain clarity and get on the high productivity wagon. Unfortunately, my doubts are getting in the way. I’m just a little bit stuck and not sure which direction to take.
Do you have doubts about your goals and dreams? How do you overcome them?
